Creeper Alert

Things around here are starting to get very strange. Very, very strange. So, as I was preparing for my beloved Cesario's return to me, I noticed that Malvolio was missing and has been missing for a while now. I asked Maria to get him and she informed me that he is acting strange. Malvolio? Acting strange? I know that he acts a little different, but he is always in control. I expected him to be acting strange because he is in mourning for some reason, just like me. So I called him to me and wow. She wasn't lying. And he definitely is not sad. He comes in this creepy smile, one that I will most likely see in my nightmares. He was also wearing these disgusting yellow stockings and those HORRID crisscrossed laces over. How could he not know that I absolutely detest both of those styles of clothing? So as I demand that he tell me what's going on with him, he starts to recite these quotes. What they meant? I have no idea. He kept on mentioning things that I have no clue what he meant by them. It seemed as if he was almost flirting with me? Or hitting on me? Either way, ew. Also, he starting talking very rude to Maria. He acted as if he was higher than her. What is he thinking? They are BOTH my servants! If anyone should talk like that, it should be me! Well, in the middle of all this nonsense, my love Cesario comes back for me! I needed to get this crazy man out of the way. So I told Maria to have Toby take care of him. But, as I just realized, that was probably a bad idea. Who knows what Toby did to him. Oh my, things are going to get even worse I fear.

Cesario, You Belong With ME!

My Forbidden Love

Oh Cesario. How I love to just think about him. Today, my brilliant plan worked. He came back with the ring, and I, so bravely, proclaimed my love for him. At first he was apprehensive, and tried to deny his love for me. Of course, anyone else would have given up after that, but because of my persistence, he gave me an obvious hint that he does love me! He told me that he isn't what he seems to be. Well that obviously means that even though he said he doesn't love me, he actually does! Oh how I love him so! His way with words and how he handles this situation. It's all so romantic! It's as if it is forbidden love. Even though I know his secret love for me, I am going to act as if I do not know it. I am going to act as if I give up, because I know that I came on too strongly. I'm going to make him come to me. Great plan huh? Well, I expect that he is going to come back soon because he will realize that he can't stand to be without me, so I better go wait for him.

New Love?

As I have mentioned in a previous post, I am not particularly looking for anyone to marry as of right now. Although I have continuously expressed this to many different men (Orsino), they still believe that they can win my affection by trying even harder. But by doing so, it annoys me even more. However, a young man from Orsino's court came by today on Orsino's behalf. What was his name again? Oh yes, it was Cesario. Just by saying his name, I get this feeling that I have never felt before. Cesario. He is so different from every other man that I have ever met. He does not agree with everything I say or do, nor does he worship me. He makes me feel like a regular human. He challenges me. He makes me realize that I need to begin my life again. I need to stop mourning and get married and start a family. Oh, and he is also very handsome. I've never seen a man look so soft before. His face almost possesses feminine qualities. Although he does not worship me exactly, but he is very persistant and does not take no for an answer. But not like Orsino persistant, because Orsino mainly annoys me, but Cesario interests me. There's just something about him. I cannot say exactly what I is, nor could I explain all of it. There's just so much to his character that I would love to find everything about him. Oh Cesario. I've never been so attracted or interested in a man. I will learn more about him. I will be with him again. I will not let my true love get away from me.

This song completely summarizes what I am feeling:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GlZxZ2n2zpw

Unconditional Family Love

Although I love my family, I cannot come to understand why my uncle, Sir Toby, acts the way that he does. Family members are supposed to have similar traits, right? So it does not make sense to me why we are so different. It seems as if he does not have any plans in life and that he has just completely succumbed to drinking everyday. I want him to realize that there is more to life than just getting drunk, and that we all need to contribute to society in some way. He also needs to respect my home and the people in it, as he is rude to me and everyone else. He constantly dissapoints me, as I want him to change and I believe that he can change. I feel that he is taking the fact that I am letting him stay here and abusing it because he knows that I really do not want to kick him out because above all, he is family.
Oh, and I really do not appreciate how he brings that knight, Sir Andrew, around. It is obvious that he wants us to get together, but there is no way that it would ever happen. He is too foolish and he is too similar to Toby. With both of them together, I feel like I could lose my mind. All they do is drink together, speak loudly at innapropriate times, and drink some more. I feel almost bad for Andrew. Because of his foolishness, he falls for everything that Toby says and follows his commands. Toby can convince him to do anything at any time, even if he truly does not want to. Although I feel bad for him, I still want him to stop going after me and leave. Both of them do not act with the respect that I want to present in this house.

Who I Am

My name is Olivia. I am a wealthy noble woman from Illyria who is not yet married. I have been courted many times by different men, but I have not found one that has impressed me. Though as of right now I am very lonely, I do not wish to find anyone because I am not going outside of my house. Ever since my brother's death I have been in mourning and will remain in my home for 7 years. I do not enjoy loud partying or drinking, and I believe in keeping a demure manner. I also do not like it when men consistently try to pursue me, even when I have already denied them. I believe that we should act accordingly to our emotions in order to find true happiness.